Wrong Decisions and Stupid Mistakes

In my life I have done so many stupid mistakes, I've made crazy and wrong decisions... I know that as long as I live there will be a huge chance that I am going to do it over and over again, and that is because I am only human. I just hope and Pray that when it is judgement time for me, God will see the real me and what's really inside my heart and forgive me. I know I am not a perfect person, who is? I have unintentionally hurt people that I love so many times and have done stupid mistakes that is going to change the rest of our lives forever. If I could only turn back time, I will try harder to be the best person that I can be but I can't so there is nothing I can do but to accept reality and face the consequences like a strong woman. Things will not always go my way, I know that now for sure because no matter how much I try to make things work, if it is not meant to be then it is not meant to happen. I am experiencing a tough moment right now but I know that in time ,with God and my son by my side I will be okay, I have to be okay not only for me but most especially for my dearest son, he is all I have right now!